[things I would DO TO EmMa WatsoN IF I hAD tHe InViSiBiLiTy CLOAK]

a list brought to you collectively by Justin and oZ

*Kinap her

*talk to her on set of the new Harry Potter Movie

*Kidnap her

*Follow her home pretending to be the wind

*Put a bag over her head and throw her in the van

*Run her into the wall as though I was a hard gust of wind in turn knocking her out and acting like nothing happened when he finally came to, and proceed to have a most delightful tea party with her

[it's a long list, I just never got around to finishing it, sorry Emma]

[¿dO YoU SEE my pRoBLeM?]

it's kind of like... I hate competition...
not because I don't think I am good enough
I don't
it's that, I guess I want everyone else to be happy, which sometimes imposes on my being happy which sucks
a lot

like say, my PRIME example, when some guy likes the same girl I like, and she is kind of interested in him, I get SOOO bummed out and a lot of the times I just try to stop liking that person because they have someone else who could probblyy be better for them then me... I don't know

that's my problem as it...

am I too good of a person?

am I just a total pussy?

I don't know... I just hate it SOO DAMN MUCH

especially when I like someone A LOT then I catch wind of fuckin' Sancho here and it seems as though they are soo much more interested in him then they are of me... what do I do? a lot of the time I just ease on the breaks and fall on my damn face and make myself look like an idiot, part of life? I don't know about you but it is MOST CERTAINLY part of mine...

[liGHt Up ANoThER OnE]

it's a little ridiculous...
I mean, I am not going to say I am more important than weed or some-such
but is it wrong for me to get upset that my friends choose smoking and drinking over me?

like, not just my everyday acquaintances I mean my best friends being like, "hey we are all going to get fucked up, see you later"

it sort of gets to me.

haha, sooo my ex decided to send me a message on myspace, trying to talk to me and such, giving me this shit wrap about how she misses me and what else...

so I tell her off, tell her that I don't want her desperate shit and that she was the one who tore us apart, and she just had to deal with it. Then she goes on the defensive and is a;; "RENENENE NOW I CAN HAVE FRIENDS NOW THAT I AM NOT WITH YOU" which sorta pissed me off... she says that shit as though I didn't let her have friends... what the fuck? It seems as though she is SOO desperate to not be the bad guy that she comes up with shit to attack me with... so I just told her to stop talking to me again, I like it better that way... all in favor of she's a total bitch and a half?... aye!

[LiSt oF aNoNyMoUs ShoRt LetTeRS]

thankyou for talking to me almost everyday, though you went behind my back and told everyone that I seek attention, I really only told those problems to you.

thankyou for talking about banging and getting with my hardest crush that I STILL DO like and have since freshman year, I don't care that you probbly could have her if you decided you want to, she would be much more than a fuck to me.

thankyou for holding my hand, it meant more than it seemed.

thankyou for liking me, though you don't know I know... makes me feel special.

i like you... i really do, but i know that if i date you, we'll only last a month tops... and i don't want that, i don't want to date anyway... kinda... it's complicated, but thankyou for being something with me

you make me feel special and are really cute and your smile melts me, and i like you quite a lot, but i don't thaink that we would work...

if I were to date anyone right now, if anyone, i would more than deffinatly want that someone to be you.

you are probbly one of the people I am VERY glad I became friends with this year

you and i should stay friends, i have a few more years of highschool left, why not?

thankyou for not changing like it seems almost eveyone else is.

thankyou for changing, it hurts to know that I barely even have one of my oldest friends anymore.

your lies are sweet.

your not my friend, you or your brother... leave me alone.

you need to leave me alone, I am happier now than i was with you which is quite a feet, but it is true, so leave me alone and let me be happy.

i wish that i could help you find someone better for you, you don't deserve this.

you disgust me but i am still your friend.

I know you lie to me, to everyone... it's almost sad, but i still talk to you... why?

why are you lying to her? she does like you, she does still want to be with you and you keep telling her that you want her too but I am not seeing it anymore, she isn't either. then you go around talking about all kinds of other girls... what the hell man?

you need to stop being soo desperate... it's kind of sad.

you make me feel like i don't deserve to make someone feel special.

[mmmmmAybE]

new blog? why yes... the old one was... out of date to say the least
bored? yes... basically

pissed, just a little but hey
I am not like, GRR GRR FUCKIN A
I'm just like... meh
but yes... I will likely blog something of some mild form of entertainment sometime soon... for now... I just wanted to be like, HEY...