[WheN i lET yoU DowN, i WAnT YoU tO SMiLE fOR yOu]

BECAUSE THIS IS FAIR?

I am a little done with me being the bad guy this week... soo
I've decide to just let it go, because if I don't I am going to end up crying and hurt and done completely.

I guess you win?

honestly I don't see how what I was doing was making anything unfair, unjust or "way more than it needs to be"
I didn't talk to you for 3 freakin days... and not even three whole days either because I would Myspace you and text you.... so yeah fuck me I guess
but I'll talk to you
thankyou.
I just don't care anymore

[aNOthEr SWeEt MooN LUL, anoTHER GrEAT DaYs DoNE]

*sigh*
haha so, I am sorta frustrated, I am hoping to just freakin' tackle what I need to get done (getting good at musical instruments in my possession and getting my tattoo career started up) and I keep getting set backs, but I will get to it, I am trying to get faster at the guitar... and Iam going to be picking back up learning Piano and as soon as I get a car I can get Violin lessons again...
but anyway
My brothers have stuff ironed out I guess, Levi got a good job offer in Payson and he is taking off in like two weeks or less and Matt and Justin are both going to Phoenix... (well Mesa) I am glad to see that I think they have stuff ironed out and doing what they want to do but I mean I will miss them, I mean they are finally actually leaving i guess... I'll still see them though... and when i graduate I know for a fact I am headed west for a home-sted...

getting a car isn't paning out at this second
but it will
and getting a job isn't going smoothly either
but it might...

mmmm

ok, so yesterday we went down to Globe to pick up Matt, all is good (pretty much) now, his lies caught up with him and Lindsey didn't want him anymore, but I don't even know
the whole thing is silly and confusing
but it's good to have Matt back :]
I want cake

[aND aS THE 'ShiP WEnt doWn alL I HEarD wAS LIES]

oh my freaking fucking god damn FUCK....
I can hardly even believe my best friend right now
Dude like tens years ok...

I don't see Matt for a day... he shows up at my house one afternoon with Lindsey...

he "HATES" Lindsey, his ex fiancee then all of a sudden he starts talking to her again and low and behold, cheats on his girlfriend with her, then a few weeks later (today/yesterday) he breaks up with her telling her it was all her fault basiclly and is now back with his EX and in Thatcher because she says that she might be pregnant from when they fucked, so they get back together...

"I am going to go to school and stay here with Lindsey" says he

He took off lastnight at midnight I guess, with Justin's, Levi's, and My skate board in the back of her car, soo when we noticed we didn't have them we call to find out what was up and they tell us what's going on, they say a week but I knew it was a lie, I tell him he is going to get expelled from the school from missing soo many days, then he tells me that he's going to just stay there... he's not going to graduate, he is crashing his life... she's probbly not pregnant at all, just greedy for attention... and all we wanted to do was stop that from happening but now I guess we might not be friends, I wish it wasn't soo...

he throws a fit at us because we tell him he needs to be back by wednesday or he's going to recieve a prompt ass whooping, he says all we care about is our skateboards... not true, I care about his future... our friendship and alll of what Lindsey is trying. and succeeding to end...

I am glad... VERY glad I have the friends I have... back when I was little I had basiclly three bestfriends... Matt, James, and Justin... Justin decided his senior year he was a new person, that he hated me and my people, that he was going to be a shit kicker and join the military and that he didn't need me anymore... James changed... WAYYYY too much and now his life is just his car and crappy job... that's it... then Matt.... this whole thing.... I hate it

now I have Justin, and Levi... a few other lesser ranked friends, goodfriends, but not my brothers as Justin and Levi are... as Bazan, Shortt and Devlin were.... I am glad I do have them though...

this situation fucking sucks.

how-ever this blows over, I hope he has a great life... (though it's likely he won't)

[SoFT sPoKEn WiTH a BRoKen JAw]

hmmmm, how are you Blogger? yeah?.......... yeah?
well that's nifty I guess...

girls... haha.. I think I may have problems in the whole being a ladies man thing, I am not... I am not every other guy at all... it seems like EVERY other guy has better luck with girls than me... except for like.... the Super Nerd assholes... Chess Club and gay community

I like a girl or so, this will be(and has been) what happens to be, they either a: have a boyfriend b: don't like me that way or C: never notice how much I would love to be with them or in a lot of circumstances all of the above

no fun, I am just going to... I don't even know, sometimes I think I might maybe want to date again then I get pushed away from it more and more so I think I am just going to float on and stick away from it....

oh well

haha

UPDATE: Girl Situation...

all ended... every one of them, Erica and I have dropped what was there I guess, which is fine... except not really... at all

I am coming to terms with being hideous, I guess I look soo much the same as I did when I was a little kid to some people and I HATE hearing that... I would like to be attractive, to someone... anyone?... I don't even know... maybe someday? I'm not waiting up for it tho...

life goes on

SOOoooOOooooOo

I HATE my job, it seriously appears as though I am putting in my two weeks within the month of September.
it's not soo much the job it's self, but the conditions, hours and Manager (Jamie)
he's just not nice to me haha
also

Inglourious Basterds, also damn good movie... go see it

Life... life is great actually, now that I think about it, yeah I have sex hormones coming from evcery direction so to speak due to my lack of any girl which is a total downer but eh :] I am getting some time in for art and music and I still get a smile atleast once every 30 minutes