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you know, it's almost pathetic of me... I get more upset with myself for being upset with myself then I should... really I do.
I mean, I don't have problems with me as myself, like who I am, just.... more or less, the womanly complaint of not being attractive
I know I'm not
I am almost 17, a junior in highschool and I have had 2 girlfriends... 2 REAL girlfriends, EVER....
granted I have some girls who like me every so often for I don't quite know why, but if ANYTHING better came by (which happens and isn't too hard to see) I am to be thrown down fast.
FORTUNATE ME, huh?
I know I know people are like it can't be that bad, but seriously I see horrible people who are much more attractive than me and I get frustrated, girls with guys who treat them worse than they deserve and I don't see why, I understand that no matter how much ANYONE tries to bullshit, really, what's outside counts, A LOT... no one is going to take the time to find out who you are if what you look like sucks... that's my problem....

LIFE?

life... is.... pretty good, really...
like, outside of that, which is damn near my one ever-present complaint, I mostly don't have any.... I am still a tid sick, though, I have spent a week with strep throat, and I am getting better.

I didn't give anybody else strep throat... :]
that's good

now I am waiting for my friends to get back.... and there they are