[[I'm a OnE wAY mOtoRwAy]]

So this is where I stand.
Things are a bit beyond my comfort level and maybe I lack the compassion I once had but I have faced:

• Being abandoned so that she could go 200 miles away for almost a half year.

• Stepping into a foreign environment and having to get a job and provide for two people, RIGHT out of high-school, all by myself.

• Her being a new caliber of mean she never even hinted at the first year of our relationship.

• All of the heart wrenching things she has said to me about how much of an asshole I am and how I don't love her enough or care enough.

and through all of that... I just have been starting to get the feeling that I am not at fault for this as much as she makes seem to be. She turned into a distrusting, demeaning, angry woman over my lack of patience for bullshit (which is a relatively new thing, seeing as I put up with almost infinite amounts of bullshit up until the third month of being away from her) and she hates ME for it. It's gotten a little bit too hard for me to keep up.

I told her that I can't keep living my life like this.

She really has been the best thing I have ever had going for me but the way things have been is getting to be too much. I feel like this entire relationship is wavering. She has become worse to me than any other girl has ever been and it's gotten to a point where who I am when I try to handle it is pretty bad. She promised things would get better more than half a year ago and to this day things have stayed pretty static. I need the real her back or else I will become the one thing I promised her, god, and myself that I would never ever be again...

alone.